saw this on fuad pnye fb. sori, but i really kinda like ur words.
so true, so sincere.
"...there are certain things i regret in life. but none would affect me as much as this one. there were many times when i was down, and there was no one i could share my problems with. she was always with me, by my side, telling me that it's okay, everything's gonna be all right. it's gonna be fine. and she was right. i got through the problems. but i did it, not only she was right; it's also because of her. she was my inspiration to be better at things, so that i can make life easier, someday, for us both. she was my inspiration to become a better person, a different and unique individual, regardless of certain disabilities i have only known to her. we share a lot of things together. but we got separated, and i think the reason was not only because of the distance; it was also my stupidity of not being able to control my stress. and i let it out on her. and i let her go. after nearly 3 years, the best 3 years of my life..and i'm writing this because i want to let it out my chest. i can't take it anymore. it's painful. i love her. and i think letting her go was my biggest mistake, and i'll regret it for the rest of my life. and i can't turn back, not to the time when it ended. i'm sorry. i could be stronger for her. but i couldn't. no one could replace her. now i couldn't share my happiness, or my sorrow. everything means nothing to me. loneliness comes upon me. the point is this..usually you don't see certain things, however small, that are important for you, until you lose it..."
WHAT WAS YOUR: 1. Last beverage: 'rainbow tree'.. sedapp, from Naili's 2. Last phone call: aqma 3. Last text message: apis kmm 4. Last song you listened to : BSB old songs,, suke sggt :) 5. Last time you cried: erm, few days back. kot
HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice : no. 7. Been cheated on : defenitely, yes. 8. Kissed someone & regretted it : no kiss n tell. 9. Lost someone special: yes.. :[ 10. Been depressed: most time. student what,, standard ah 11. Been drunk and threw up: i dont drink bulls***
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS: 12. black 13. gold 14. red
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009) 15. Made a new friend: for sure :)
16. Fallen out of love: erm, nop!
17. Laughed until you cried: haha, sometimes.
18. Met someone who changed you: ermm, think so
19. Found out who your true friends were: definetely yes!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: er,dunno la. ignore je
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: hahaha..ade kot~
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: bykkk
23. How many kids do you want to have: eh, x pk lgi la >.<
24. Do you have any pets: nahh, mls nk jga. haha
25. Do you want to change your name?: im hepi with my own
26. What did you do for your last birthday: study week. n oh, my frens kt IMU buat surprise.. how sweet
27. What time did you wake up today: late. xingt.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night :on9. mcm biase.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G
30. Last time you saw your Mother: few minutes back.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : errm, ..
32. What are you listening to right now: clicking sound. farah punye mouse :p
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i am tom. Mak Tom :p
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: why i still cant go shppng?? im on my holiday now.
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, blogger.
36. Whats your real name: nor ashikin johari
37. Nicknames: ikin,shikin,ash,comel,dendet,shikimic,norishjohari,kinkin, n the list goes on...
38. Relationship Status: in relationship with HIM.
39. Zodiac sign: taurus
40. Male or female?: pompuan :)
41. Elementary: sk seafield
42. Middle School?: smk seafield
43. High school/college?: kolej matrikulasi melaka, IMU bukit jalil
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: never knew. seriously -_-"
47. Do you have a crush on someone : yup, HIM
48: What do you like about yourself? : nothing.
49. Piercings: a pair
50. Tattoos: disgusting.
51. Righty or lefty: righty
FIRSTS : 52. First surgery: none. 53. First piercing: err,, few years back 54. First best friend: aqma, mint, lina, joana 55. First sport you joined: netball n hoki 56. First vacation: ngarrr, x ingt -_-" 58. First pair of trainer: adidas, n wore them like once only. haha
RIGHT NOW 59. Eating: goreng pisang 60. Drinking: none. 62. Listening to: my sister n my kazen talking 63. Waiting : for my bff.. wanna have some fun.
YOUR FUTURE : 64. Want kids?: yup, for sure. cute little one :) 65. Get Married?: mau2. mari pinang cepat. haha 66. Career?: pharmacist.
WHICH IS BETTER : 67. Lips or eyes: lips.. 68. Hugs or kisses: both 69. Shorter or taller: taller. 70. Older or Younger: neither 71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic.. 72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arm.. 73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive.. 74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.. 75. Trouble maker or hesitant: neither.
HAVE YOU EVER : 76. Kissed a stranger: euuww, tak! 77. Drank hard liquor: never 78. Lost glasses/contacts: no 80. Broken someone's heart: yeah. never regret it 82. Been arrested: im a gud girl :) 83. Turned someone down: yes. 84. Cried when someone died: yes. 85. Fallen for a friend?: errr..
DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 86. Yourself: sometimes. 87. Miracles: depends 88. Love at first sight: yupp2 89. Heaven: yes.. 90. Santa Claus: nahh 92. Angels: hmm..
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no. im loyal :p 95. Did you sing today?: yupp2. lalalala~ 96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no. 97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: mtrix would be nice. miss sggt. 98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: err,, too mny tochoose from. hurmm, how about that day.. somewhere end of may. 99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: err, tak kot. 100. Posting this as 100 truths?: defenitely.